Why me, Lord?

"Why me, Lord?" was one of the first thoughts that entered my mind upon recieving the diagnosis that I was terminal. The thought that immediately followed was, "I deserve every negative experience, every bad thing, that may come my way, and much much more. But, I have a glorious God who has chosen not to give me everything I deserve. Instead, He has given me mercy and grace through His son, Jesus."


No Christian is exempt from trials and tribulations in their experience in this world. After all, we're on the battle field, the battle between good and evil. Satan is still roaming the earth, as a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour! However, praise God! his days are numbered.

There's no doubt in my mind that the Lord is still on His throne, ruling and reigning, according to His good pleasure. He is in complete control of my circumstances. He knows what He is doing. I'm not always able to track Him, and when I can't track Him, I trust Him. He has graciously given me peace, regarding my health, whatever the outcome may be. In the meantime, with His help, I want to lift up His name, so that He can draw all men unto Himself!

Ro 8:28-9:1
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
29 For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.
30 Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.
31 What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?
32 He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?
33 Who shall lay any thing to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth.
34 Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.
35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
36 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.
37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (KJV)